Welcome home, me.

It's been some time since I last wrote an entry about what's really going on in my life; 

 Maybe to you guys (on my IG stories) I've been a little sad, sometimes too happy and sometimes too ignorant. 

I wish to say actually most of the times I'm okay, I'm getting by with life and maybe a little on still figuring things out. 

 Do we all have a phase like this sometimes, somehow? 

 Sometimes I really wish to shut myself down and away from the matters of the heart because I realised I'm no longer capable in knowing how to deal with things and the problems, and maybe just wishing for miracles to happen because in the end I always get so tired of believing and trying. 

 It's easier to numb the pain and forget because sometimes when we care too much, it just seems to hurt more, right?

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 There's too much hopes that I've been blinding myself with always thinking like 

"Maybe this time it’ll be different". 

But I guess ultimately we know it wouldn't change - nothing would no matter how much we try. 

 But now, I hope it's still not too late to try to get myself out; 

 "The laughters and late nights drunk on the feeling of being young and infatuated. 

But you let them stay because it reminds you of how you were once in the water and the sun was beating on your neck." 

 But that's exactly how I ruined myself actually. 

I know; you'll know. 

 Guess it's time, to finally let go - to welcome myself back into my own life where it started off as just me, myself and I. 

 Welcome home, me. 

 It’s been too long.

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